About being ambitious

Is there anything bad about it? I consider myself very ambitious, a little too ambitious I would say. Many people I know tell me I have got to learn to be more patient and to accept downfalls and mistakes. But this is exactly what is so hard for me, to see myself fail in something that I love doing…

Aims and the way before it

I tend to choose high aims for me, and I feel especially attracted by those which are very hard or maybe even impossible to complete. It is the difficulty that makes those aims so interesting. If one mission is completed, I go for the next.

And if I fail…

then I tend to put down immediatly what I am doing and return to my house like a snail is doing, not touching anything. Sooner or later, I come out again and go for it again, not fearless yet, but too attracted by the issue to let it all stagnate. In the past years I let go of things and hobbies forever, because I felt I was only failing and was not mastering anything. Some people told me I could have fought for it, but I was to afraid, because I felt that I could not master anything I do and did not have any talent.
Now at getting older I feel it is time to fight those demons and to accept failures, and to learn from them. Somebody once told me: “If only the most talented birds were allowed to sing, the forest would be pretty quiet”…